After 9 $150/ 45-minute therapy sessions I just asked her... how do I have to change to make our relationship better.
She said stop being an emotional rollercoaster and suicidal.
I said ok.
From now on I will be grateful for every day I'm alive and be happy.
I will let the universe support me.
I will let people love me.
I will enjoy my life.
And all the sudden my life got a lot easier.