So I started the book the Purpose Driven Life and I had to stop at day 4.
The religion just didn't make sense to me.
And by day 4 I knew I couldn't continue with this spiritual transformation.
I will actually put the book in a free library and move on.
I looked up a synagogue and will join on Friday.
Moral of the story... when you are searching for something... it's ok to find something that doesn't resonate with you so it will guide you to something that does!